I have written 10,000 words of solid commentary on John 17 from verse 1 to verse 14, the middle of the chapter. This is accomplished in barely over a week since early February. I felt I had accomplished more in the past 8 days than 14 months of pastoring a church. What is crooked cannot be made straight. And Scripture cannot be broken.
In hindsight, what happened on that April night was the beginning of the end, no matter how much I tried to put behind me the betrayal felt and forgive any transgression, the betrayal had gone too deep. When people don't truly repent, they bear the guilt on their sins and betrayal. They may pretend that all is well, but it is only on the surface. No wonder the prophet Zechariah wrote: "I was wounded in the house of my friends."Betrayal goes deep when it is those whom you think are friendly to you. It is those who are supposed to stand up for you and speak on one's behalf but yet at an opportune time, they chose to put the dagger into the heart, back and front. But now I am relieved of it all.
I could write with a flourish, in Malay. I thank God for the gift and no man could receive anything except it is given to him from heaven (John 3). So with the rate I am going, I am going to finish the first draft in 52 days which could happen before Good Friday. It will be a miracle, though revising and editing will take another month or two, perhaps by June at the latest everything will be done, and I hope I can start a new book project by the second half of the year.
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