Monday, May 20, 2024

Refreshed in Singapore

I don’t know why that I like Singapore a great deal. I have come here to get away from the toxic air where I was staying for several months. I only shared with my friend one thing that led to my resignation from the Seminary. As the Psalmist says if he would speak thus he would offend the children of men. People get offended so easily. But prophets are made of steel. One senior leader told me a couple of weeks ago without my prompting “Tony you are like one of the OT prophets. Strong personality.” Yes my face is made like flint so that I won’t flinch from insults and dishonour. I have enough measure of that but likewise honour and praise.

Flying Again

Flying could be stressful, all the packing, check in, security clearance and waiting for departure even if all goes well. But flying could be relaxing as well, because one can't do much except to focus on the flight and if there are hours to spare, one can do some work at the airport while waiting for boarding. I am flying again, after 9 months. Last year in August, I flew to Kuala Lumpur for a week-end trip, conducting a seminar on Saturday afternoon and preaching on Sunday. This time it will be longer, a whole week which means I needed to pack more especially since I am teaching a class, I brought books with me adding to the weight just over 20kgs of checked in luggage. But now I am waiting for boarding and there is plenty of time. I will go my notes for the first couple of lectures and one can work on the plane too. But I have my music with me, mostly songs recorded live during worship. One song that touches me deeply is the worship song sung in a faraway village up the mountains with a congregation of about 100 people and I still hold wonderful memories of the place even though 5 weeks have passed. "You love me" ("Kau mengasihiku").

Friday, May 3, 2024

Touch & Go

It is touch and go whether I will attend the second last Thursday assembly next Thursday. Normally I only watch the online service as after rising up at dawn and lecturing for three hours my energy is spent and I can’t sit for another hour plus at Chapel. But as I shall be leaving in a few weeks’ time I shall try to make it in the Thursday service just to say good bye to students and colleagues. I have mixed feelings but it is good I an leaving just after one year as there is little time to be attached to anyone or anything on Campus.

Sunday, April 28, 2024

The Month of May 2024

In 20 days' time I shall be officially going on leave pending my departure from my current place of ministry and then moving all my stuff back to my house in Kota Kinabalu. I will put my 2-week plan into action that I could move all my things within a fortnight and settle into a new place. It's been a promise I have kept to the Lord since my first departure from my legal practise to flying off to New Zealand with a young family (my wife and our 2-year old son) to start a new journey in life, in preparation for ministry. Only in church just now, one church member, a senior civil servant told me he bought two of my books and he was blessed with "Departure Points" so much that he thought he entered into my world and was taken along the ministry I undertook.

Wednesday, April 24, 2024

Spiritual Birthday

Only one person commented that I should celebrate my spiritual birthday which is today, 24th April as I was born again or known by God on the 24th April 1982 in Christchurch, New Zealand. But everything goes back to the first time Jesus Christ appeared to me and called into His service a year later. Those two encounters in April 1982 and May 1983 determined the course of the rest of my life and I am determined to serve the Lord Christ until the end of my days. He is alive. He has died for our sins. 

Sunday, April 21, 2024

Blogging highlights

I thought to myself why don’t I focus more on blogging since in the past two months it is reaching more than 10,000 readers per month. I know it will ebb and flow but blogging has given me some marvellous benefits including a full-time job in Singapore in 2008 and numerous friends whom I lost touch had reconnected with me through coming across my blog.

Friday, April 19, 2024

I am still Alive

After a bout with illness, one realises just how close we are to death where every one alive will meet one day. If I am still alive, it is because God still has a duty for me on earth. For He is the Lord over all the earth and He has His purposes for this earth, for every nation, tribe and language. When someone comments that my ministry revolves around kampung folks (village people) I felt a sense of pride, not unworthiness. Who will go and teach these kampung folks? Yes, there are many preachers and itinerants as well, but not many have the knowledge that God has given me. It is enriching for all concerned at least for someone with my background preaching to the village folks.

Wednesday, April 17, 2024

One Month to Go

Today I have gone past the one month's mark before I take my annual leave and move out of my apartment and await a new ministry. It is surreal. I did not particularly feel anything except a tinge of sadness as we met as a family group at noon. No one said anything when I told them one more month I shall be gone. I guess everyone has a life to live like Paul said, "many look after their own interests, but not the interests of Jesus Christ" (Philippians). With so many invitations coming my way (whole month of May is filled up) I had no time to reflect except to prepare for my classes and preaching engagements in the week-end. Might as well since I would not have much to time to feel despondent or sad that my time is cut short. Alas it is God's will and there is a greater purpose in all these.

Monday, April 15, 2024

Minimum Pay

In Malaysia it has been more than two years that RM1,500.00 per month minimum wage has been put into effect by law. But how come so many of my fellow pastors get only less than that and some of them only half of the minimum pay? I cried for them for those who faithfully serve You O Lord would You not look from heaven and help them? They do a wonderful job with 5 evening services a week which means only two nights of rest for family and self rejuvenation.

Wednesday, April 10, 2024

A Lifetime of Achievements

In the world it might be that a few ambitious individuals will want to live a life filled with achievements. But the vast majority of people will be content with a few highlights in their careers with few achievements to be proud of. It is called to survive in this ever challenging world. The sad fact of the matter is that most Christians will also depart this world with little fruits to show for, even among many full-time workers, pastors and the like in church. For many it will be like any other career, maybe they had the sensed of calling in their teenage years or early twenties when they entered Bible College but soon the run of the mill demands of ministry and complexity of working with people, leaders of the local church would dry up even the very persistent and only a handful can truly claim to retain its sparks and fire of God's calling in their lives and at the end of it claim to live a life filled with achievements.

Monday, April 8, 2024

Golden Triangle of Theology

To see the fulfilment of the "Golden Triangle of Theology" which I wrote in my "Tuhan Tritunggal" (God the Trinity) book, a collection of essays, I plan to visit these two places in the near future. Next year I plan to visit Sarawak our Bornean neighbour and the year after, Kalimantan to visit Indonesia's new capital and perhaps also Balikpapan and Samarinda, the twin cities of East Kalimantan. In two years' time with the new Indonesian President firmly in place in Nusantara, I pray that I will establish connections between the three major Bornean provinces, the two States of East Malaysia and Pulau Kalimantan.