Betrayal

It’s been five weeks. I thought I got over the sense of betrayal that I felt 5 weeks ago. But the pain does not go away. In fact I would not be writing about this if I did not know what to do going forward. It was not right to step down in less than half a year and many members would be shocked if I did, so I bore with the insult and betrayal but the wound did not heal after 5 weeks.

But now I know what to do but it won’t happen until I complete my one year as pastor which is just 6 months away. At the end of November I will decide my future. My first thought if I step down is that I could return to writing.

I have Mondays as my off days but for the past 6 months I have not added a line to my manuscript. Even if I got some energy left on Mondays, which I normally use to catch up on sleep, if not I would have to think of my next sermon title usually ready by Tuesday at the latest. 

Pastoring is a full time job with no time to spare to do anything else. So I will give it my best shot unless something more dreadful happens than what happened last month. I won’t be surprised at anything nowadays as the devil prowls about seeking whom he might deceive and devour to do his bidding in these evil days. 

We are living in dangerous times, in the midst of an evil and adulterous generation (Matt 12) and those who seek to turn himself from evil makes himself a prey to the ruthless.