Looking to God Alone

My life and ministry is a life of faith. In my recent book, "Anak Panah" ("Chosen Arrow"), my last chapter of the book tells of nine different life changing decisions I had had to make in the past 34 years, a few would have led to financial ruin if it were not the Lord's leading and His blessing that followed. Except for one year in a local interdenominational Seminary, I have served my denomination in Sabah, all these 24 years in all and counting.

I called my 6 years away from Sabah as my Singapore's sojourn, though granted Singapore Permanent Residence which I renounced in 2017, I never felt at home or could not find a home church all those six years. It was a story to be remembered, though friendship with various individuals in Singapore has kept my faith alive and now I see many of my former students taking up senior positions in churches throughout Singapore. 

How I survived and still serving in the same denomination is a story in itself. Just four weeks ago, by invitation I went to preach two sessions, Saturday night and Sunday morning in one of the farthest villages in Sabah (5 hours' drive non-stop) and I had to break the trip in Tambunan (2 hours' drive from KK) and another four and a half hours the next day to reach the village. It was more than 29 years ago that I went into this village, perhaps preaching four or five sessions, which were normal during those days. Only a few older leaders remembered me as one generation goes and another generation arises.

I am praying for the next phase of my ministry. I might return to writing full-time or go somewhere overseas for a season just to take a break over a quarter of a century of mission work. The word, "furlough" is unknown to me, even when I waited for my next appointment several times in the past 11 years, I was always at work, producing 6 books in less than 6 years and it is only this year I could not do any writing with the pastorate occupying all my time and energy and that might be coming to an end soon, as the Lord leads.