End-of-the-Year Toss Up

I could toss and turn and wonder whether I should stay or go. I look back in the past year and there are highlights and equal amount of disappointment. Should I just take the latter in my strides and ignore all that are grievous? I know we live in a very imperfect world and there are many who let us down whether in deed or word or omission. He who knows what is good and fails to do it, it is sin, so says James the apostle.

They are many who are two-faced and have no principles. Did not Peter warn us against unprincipled men who will twist Paul’s words to their own destruction? There are many who look after their stomachs (literally) as they look like (as men) 7 or 8 months pregnant women. All they care is their rice bowls and they have not an ounce of spirituality in them. These are dogs, Paul says, in fact enemies of the cross of Christ as they do not offer any sacrifice or living a sacrificial life is unknown to them as they only mind their own interests and not the interests of Jesus Christ. 

But yet I could look at many positives throughout the year. Only less than 2 weeks ago the Lord worked marvellously in our midst and I danced in front of the congregation amazed at the Lord’s outpouring of His love and grace to His people, especially to the 20 plus people who came forward to be prayed for. I also can testify on average once every month I sensed the presence of God strong during worship so much so that I wept, on occasions my tears dropped to the carpet at the work of God in my heart. I would miss our worship team if I go. 

I’d afraid if I do not go now, things will get worse and some worse fractures will happen between brothers in Christ. For all the past three churches I had left in peace though the last one during the pandemic, I was practically forced to resign due to a directive from the top sealed by an elder insisting I should get vaccinated. With hindsight, choosing not to be vaccinated was the best decision I made whatever cost I must bear until today. For me it is a personal choice; it is my body and it is nobody business to tell me what to ingest or be injected into my body, the holy temple of the Lord (Roman 12:1-2)