50 to 500

I believe in miracles. When I was short-listed for a writer's scholarship November 2026 I told my wife that I needed to save RM500.00 per month for the next 12 months just to afford my airfare should I take up the one-month's scholarship. But now I can't even save Rm50.00 per month, but have to rely on my itinerant ministry and book sales to make ends meet. Even so, I believe in miracles. I have experienced many miracles in my life, many financial ones. I remember going to South Korea about 10 years ago (July 2016) and I bought my tickets myself and wife by January 2016, knowing I had no money for the trip, registration costs, hotels, let alone 3 extra days in Seoul after the 4 day Conference.

But I believed in the Lord. Just a few days before leaving for South Korea, I made a trip to attend my former student's wedding in Singapore, another implausible thing I did as RM2,000.00 for the trip could have gone to cover part of my South Korea's Conference expenses. In Singapore I preached in a Singaporean church on Sunday and I did not hint of any financial needs, just shared what I had been up to in the 18 months since I left Singapore for good to return to Sabah and served in a rural church, two hours from Kota Kinabalu. 

I remember after the service ended, 7 or 8 church members handed me angpows (mostly in red packets, some straight up cash) totalling close to SGD1,800.00 amounting to RM4,500.00 in Malaysian ringgit. That was the financial miracle. I managed to cover all costs unpaid till then and had money to spare for the three extra days of taking my wife around Seoul after the Conference. 

I believe in a God who multiplies his manifold grace for undeserving servants. No one deserves His grace, but grace is grace because it is given to the unworthy. God's generosity is surely one of His attributes, those working just one hour gets a whole day's pay, those having ten talents given one more taken away from the lazy servant. I have preached and taught many times, if we should mirror God's character, it is always better to err on the side of generosity.