Peace was broken

Often times when God wants to call someone and use someone He isolates him and he becomes a solitary figure before he could truly hear from God and God’s equipping of His servants often takes the form of solitude. Not just John the Baptist who spent his adult years of 10 plus years in the wilderness before he came baptising. Moses spent 40 years in the wilderness before God called him to return to Egypt. Jacob spent 20 years in a foreign land before God called him to return to the land of his birth.

So this morning I was writing happily for more than 2 hours from 6.30am to nearly 9am before my wife started to have her breakfast and my peace was broken. As Scripture says, if one has wife, one has to please one’s wife so it is not easy to find solitude to write my book. 

The Holy Spirit is likened to a dove, soft and gentle and He does not like places where peace is broken including homes, churches and Christian organisations. I am leaving my current place in order to maintain peace in my current church lest I stay on and have to rebuke some leaders more harshly. Even now I know they could not accept some of my gentle reproaches and I told my friend yesterday over lunch that often times I found myself in trouble because people have big egos. 

Even in my former Seminary after three months handing over my letter of resignation I patiently waited for a reply, but none was forthcoming until the first Faculty meeting late January the following year when I raised the topic of my resignation. The response was that he hoped that I would go to see him and retract my resignation. 

I found it totally amazing to hear that, since I resigned why should I then go and plead my case? If he did not want me to resign, can he not take about 30 steps from his office to see me or ask me to come to his office? Again big ego. Nowadays there are just too many so-called Christian leaders who just sit in their high and mighty offices and wait for others to see them. Where is the shepherd among us? A pastor who goes to look after lost sheep and try to find them until they are found.